Panic Attacks // Ruel // English

SHE SET FIRE TO THE WORLD AROUND HER, BUT NEVER LET A FLAME TOUCH HIM

Living in a world that feels dangerous and where you can't seem to trust anyone is difficult. It's the pain and trauma that haunts you that turns you into a person you didn't really want to be. Someone you're not supposed to be. It has left Yasmine Gray cold. It taught her how to fend off the outside world. How best to build walls so no one can get in. She has always remained the target, even in the times when she became weaker, although she has not always shown it. It didn't do her any good, it never did. All it left behind are wounds that never had a chance to heal. There was never enough rest to heal. Healing from the past. Searching and yearning for trust she hasn't done for a long time until someone could change that. Until she found a future in the bright eyes that left the world in complete silence. Who took her to a place where she felt safe. It was that boy who made a change. Who showed her that the world didn't always have to look horrible. That she doesn't always have to flee, but that there is also a place where the love is present that she has never felt that way.

TW // Death, murder, rape, violence, suicidal thoughts, abuse, PTSD, panic attacks, alcoholism, trauma (nightmares), unsafe home-situation, graphic sex, blood, hospitalisation, car accident, hallucinations, self-harm, swearing, weapons