I'm in love with my best friend... In the chaos of Renmin's crushing marriage their son needs to do everything possible and impossible to never ever let his best friend find out it has been him only - the muse behind every song, the substance of each daydream, the one keeping him sane. Xiaojun has learned to play pretend his whole life, but soon speaking out loudly might become the only way to save reality from self collapsing and him from loosing his family and Yangyang. This can be read as an alone standing book or book 6 in the No Girls Allowed series.