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Tae Shin is a simple boy with simple dreams, who likes to hide his half-forgotten past into the shadows of his low self-esteem. Kim JaeHwan is a sole heir to a gigantic multi-billion conglomerate, who likes to reminisce the ghosts of his happy childhood a little more than what is healthy. 

Their childhood friendship was one that could be described by a pretty montage. Flashes of memories stuck in rose gold resin and sparkles. They held hands wherever they went, until life snatched Shin away and made him a shattered mess of the human he was. Only JaeHwan remembers the pretty parts; Shin is left with hollow nightmares of his childhood abuse and a crippling case of amnesia. 

When fate places them together once again, in the elite school of Royal Boys High, JaeHwan's memories blur and fuse with his fantasies. Where he dreams of loving his lost childhood friend once again. Shin would remember him, wouldn't he? 




Cover and story art by myself. 

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Paralyzed (boyxboy) by SiennaSway

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The Games We Play by grraciie_

Cameron Cole has a plan. After yet another relationship ends because of certain shortcomings-literally-Cameron decides it's time to swear off dating and focus her energy into her junior year at the University of Charlotte. There's an internship up for grabs and there's no way she's letting that slip through her fingers. But then she's goes and makes one impulsive mistake that changes everything. Wesley Reed has it all. As the golden boy of the Charlotte Colts football team, he's got the talent, the looks, and a future so bright it's practically blinding. Girls throw themselves at him, professors let things slide, and the world bends to his will. But when a required freshmen paper threatens his eligibility, the two are brought together in a sick twist of academic fate. Cameron can't get him out of her head and Wesley isn't making it any easier with his cocky smirk and insistent charm. Their arrangement teeters on the edge of disaster as unresolved tension and late-night study sessions give way to a steamy, no-strings-attached deal. But in the game of love and lust, someone always has to loose-and the stakes have never been higher.

Bunny Love (Foxy x Bonnie) by _Lost-in-stars_

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Saving Isabella by PrincessTwinkleLoans

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