why did I loose my memory's

"nothink makes sense the red eyes the voice its all just a fairytale right,come on its only says in the book 'pureblood vampires a very well known to loose there memorys after a certain family member dies.pureblood vampires are also well known to be the best vampire(proceed to to the next page)wait what there is no page,I don't see why I read these books when all this voice says is'I'm Lucas your mate I will guide you,bla bla bla"sets book down "its time to find out what δαηφξζ means?"(read to find out)