What The Suicidal Mind Thinks
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Last published Wed, Aug 20, 2014
16-year old, Clarissa Lewis has been through so much over the last months before her suicide attempt. From break ups, to break downs. From life to death. From love to war. From apologies to murder. She can't get a rest. Not to mention, the fact that she hates everyone that isn't someone important to her, like her friends.
Her friends are her anchors. They are what keeps her going when she doesn't think she can. Along those friends, is Chris Pulk, her best friends brother, who she cannot help but feel utterly attractive to, but she can't get close. She's too scared.
But what happens when her friends cannot hold her down anymore? What happens when she has to be the anchor to the ones she cares about and the one she loves? What happens when she has to get close in order to save her friends? This is possibly her worst nightmare. Her life, her story, and her (maybe) tragic end.
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