XXS (TW: eating disorders, recovery)

Dear diary,
if you had asked me four years ago, what I wanted to be when I was older, I would have said "xxs." Life was represented to be more glamorous for girls who are skinny and beautiful, however, after years of therapy, I now know that that's a false narrative that magazines feed young girls to make profit for selling us things we don't need. If everyone loved themselves, they'd go out of business. I no longer want to have the body of a Victoria Secret Model, I just want to be me. Thanks, diary,
My most authentic self.