NEVER ENDING JOURNEY

So yeah it's happening again. I am trying to somehow forget you but you are not a drug that could be separated from me by just taking it away from me. Your importance in my life is increasing day by day. I start a day promising myself not to think of any of chats or remember the time when we were together and end up the day by thinking what the fuck happened to me. Honestly speaking I have never experienced this type of feeling before. I wanna cry under the shower aloud and let all the memories of you just die. I don't know how I am going to live this life without you. Or maybe I don't have that time. Time indeed is a problem for all neuro patients! I don't know when will that time come when I will be lying on the floor wearing a shroud and you would be sitting beside me crying and missing those moments of friendship.