Blue isn't really my colour. - Alexander - Wattpad

Blue isn't really my colour.

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Kile is a 14yr-old teen. He was grown in a Christian family and is always bullied for his dark, long, curly hair. People ridicule him for his squeaky voice or his feminine appearance too, and constantly keep calling him gay even though he has a girlfriend, Lina, who has always been there for him... 
     Well, Kile's life isn't as happy as it sounds one-day dark thoughts start crossing his mind and he keeps trying to suppress them. Would he resist them? Or would he rather end it all before it even started... I guess you'll have to find out. 😉 
     
   •  A fascinating story about the struggles of a trans girl trying to discover her identity and sexuality. 
      *WARNINGS AND INFO*
•Includes adult content, cussing words, self-harm, and suicide attempt.
•Please do not, I repeat DO NOT read if any of the above could affect your mental health or disturb you in any way.
•LGBTQ+ friendly environment if you came here to judge/ harm/hurt anyone you can just leave... I mean leave... 
PSA:  This story is inspired by a close friend of mine (Hi if you're reading this 😊) and it supposed to represent the true reality of being transgender. Thank you all for reading :)All Rights Reserved

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