i'm back after not using wattpad in forever. i hope i can be better this time if you're reading this, you're probably doing pretty bad. i'm sorry for that and i hope you can get better soon, even if it's really hard i don't want to trigger anyone. i'm just writing my thoughts and emotions here. if you don't want to know anything about them, please don't read this 'book' and if you decide to read anyways, please enjoy but not too much