I'm a mistake.
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Last published Wed, Aug 20, 2014
Hey. Do you ever just feel worthless, hopeless, inadequate, ugly and depressed? Well ya, i feel that everyday. Nobody really give a fuck about me. I just want to die and kill myself cause no one even cares. I wake up everday and i just feel blank. But late i get judged and yelled at just for being me. Well sorry i'm not perfect tbh. Why cant they just accept the real me? Like damn get a life cause i'm not changing for anyone. For the past years, i have been the happiest person. Now i'm just broken. I can't hold in this shit anymore. Before you'd see my smile every second and hear my laugh all the time. Now you just me messed up and disappointed about myself. Like fuck everything. I feel like a worthless piece of shit/mistake :( i need help really bad. These people around me are making me.. Not me anymore. I want my old self back. No one knows how i feel. I got that fake smile on for the past few months. I'm sad, i'm stupid, i'm a mistake.
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