A Series Of Letters I Will Never Send
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This is more personal, I guess. My depression has come crashing back into my life like a tsunami, destroying everything that was once good in its path. There have been so many influential individuals that have come into my life and shaped me into who I am today and so many people that I am so thankful for. However, there are also people that I need to address, things I need to vent out that I can't to their face because I am scared.
I want to move past all the hurt and despair that once clouded my life, I want to make amends but also I want to cut ties. I want to move forward so that I can be happy again and I know of no other way to do this besides writing it out.
I have always loved writing. It always made me feel so much better and like a weight has been lifted off of me and I hope that's what it does for me now. I am tired of not feeling okay.
So, here is my life. All of my anger, hurt, betrayal and despair laid out before you on one page. A telling of a life I once led, but do not be fooled. I am not the main protagonist of my story. I was not such a good person either, but all that will be addressed in pages to come. Here is A Series Of Letters I Will Never Send.
Inspired by "a lot of things" by @fagoutboy
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