Lockdown Diary of an emotionally unstable mess
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It's been about a month that we're all stuck at home.
Some people doing better than others.
I think I'm starting to lose track of time, and being alone with myself isn't doing me any good.
So I decided to write this.
To stay sane, and remember this moment of my life after all this will be over.
But it seems that we're not going anywhere, anytime soon...
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Hey there !
Welcome inside the mind of an emotionally unstable mess that is me. But warning, It's really dark and messed up in here !
You surely don't really care what I'm thinking or what I'm doing, but give it a try. This diary was at the beginning a assignment for my English class, but a found it well written and quite funny that I decided to share it here.
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