Just My Soul Responding.
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My thoughts were destroying my soul. I tried not to think but the silence was a killer too. Another voice deep within came to light created endless relentless existential dialogues. Like Nietzsche I gazed long into the abyss and the abyss gazed straight back. Another me fighting the current me but for what? Is it for control? Freedom? Or is it just a way to fulfill my deepest desire? To annihilate myself. To end it all.
This novel is a philosophical journey that tries to answer existential questions with inner dialogues and to find meaning to all of this. A philosophical journey of a soul responding to this thing we call life.
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