Inside My Head
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Last published Mon, Apr 20, 2020
just thoughts I have about my daily life, feelings, family, and processing my mental health . Sometimes I just want to share.
I have schizoaffective and PTSD (or CPTSD according to my new therapist.)
Just seeing if anyone else out there can relate to anything I think or feel.
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