FALLING

I can never dream. At least I can never remember them. Sometimes it just feels like I'm always asleep. Like the world that im living right now is just a dream. I used to always want to go to sleep and never wake up but now I would give anything to do just that. Now that I'm thinking about it...it feels like a nightmare. Sometimes I feel like I'm falling from a thousand story building, but every time I close my eyes once I get closer to the floor, It starts all over again, as if I never hit the ground. I feel the impact once I crash but it's just a never-ending loop of falling. It's as if death is torturing me. I've been in the air for so long that it's come to the point where I'm longing to just hit the ground, sometimes I hope that someone's at the bottom ready to catch me. But as the times go by, I notice the little things, I notice the air that flows around me, I notice the clear sky around me. Then that's when I realize something, I don't long to crash into the ground, I long for the rush that falling gives me. I realize that there wont just be one person at the bottom ready to catch me, it's that everyone on the ground knows I'll be okay, because they see, that I'll never really crash, they know that the most peaceful thing for me is up in the air. Where there's nothing to worry about. So, if this is just a dream, if this is a nightmare. Then I don't mind falling. I want to fall