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"We can't all be happy all the damn time. Not everyone can be free. That's how life is for me, Phil. You're the only thing that makes me free. It won't change. At least not much. I will keep only wanting and loving you."

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Yes I'm doing a present day Phan high school au. yes I'm lame. But do I care? Naaah. 

They've been friends a long time. With the testosterone and the inside jokes, the side glances and all nighters, our boys become enamored with each other. As the relationship grows, Phil longs to be open about the relationship but Dan can't let that happen. What lengths will he go to keep Phil and keep everyone else off his trail?All Rights Reserved

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