Hidden Shadow
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Last published Fri, Apr 10, 2020
I am a person who wants to be accepted as I am, for who I am and for who I will stay as for the rest of my life. This is my life which I didn't plan for. I would have been much caught up in something else in life if I were not made to feel that I am someone whose family and friends would say, "I would have supported and accepted you if you were someone else I didn't know." Does it sound familiar?
Yes, I am gay. I am not necessarily a guy nor a woman. I am not good at stereotyping things. I may seem like that from time to time. But hey, I am just trying. I am so confused at times what to think of myself let alone how others be confused about me and complicating my life. Yes, my damn life.
Do I sound bitter?
Indeed I tend to sound bitter and I am bitter. No one know themselves for sure. But no family judge their family constantly because they were born as they were.
You know it's never been my choice either to be born or to be gay. Either way I have to survive if it's all that matters.
Welcome to my life even if it's no one that I am speaking to.
My family has disowned me today. My best friend stopped talking to me since last week. Let them figure out their thoughts.
This is just me blogging my life ever since I came out of the closet.
I am born as a male for all that you need to know me as of now.
Does it matter to assign a gender to myself?
I guess so. I am identified as a male all my life.
Yesterday when I told my family, they were like, "But you do not act like a girl!"
The problem. One of the stereotypes I would say...
(to be continued)
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