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a journey of a girl that
feels too much loves
too little
and a boy that stands and stare
because
there is nothing he can
do.
of Sage and Charlie.
in which we explore Sage's struggles with love, anxiety, and self loath.
written in the style of poetry and drabbles
This is a project directed towards me and to anyone that is struggling with severe relationship anxiety, borderline personality disorder, depression or anything you feel like you have an issue with. The goal of this book is a way for me to cope with everything I have going on right now and while I think the beginning of this book will be dark (because my mind is dark and I'm trying to get out), I hope by the end of my journey with Sage and Charlie, I'll have better thoughts and for you to have better thoughts as well.
If you have something you want me to address in this book, a struggle that you're facing, please leave it in the comments. Hopefully reading your problems from the perspective of another will help you. Because it helps me when I put my issues into Sage.
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