More Than One Big Love Story

"How? How can you be so sure you can never love someone, me, the same way you loved him?" he asks
His words are like daggers to me, just like I assume my words are to him
But I answer his question anyway
"Because Josh is...Josh is dead" I say
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All Mckenna Carrington wants is for her senior year to be over as soon as possible, so she could go on the road trip and do all the things she and her boyfriend Josh had planned. Mckenna is going to have to do all those things alone, because Josh is gone, and it's all her fault. She's determined to live her life and love Josh forever. Insert Derek Marshall. An arrogant and rebellious teen who has just moved into the Carrington's home along with his sister Daisy, whose head is stuck high in the clouds. Derek hated the idea of having to move in with his grandparents while his mother was away with her new husband she replaced them with. Derek's only wish when he arrived in the small town was to get out, till he meets Mckenna, knowing he's finally met his match in someone who is even more damaged than he is. Soon the two wind up on the road trip Mckenna had been planning for the summer. The things on the list are personal, adventurous, and totally out of her comfort zone, exactly what Josh would have wanted and now she was stuck doing those things with Daisy and Derek by her side, which she couldn't decide if it was a good, or bad thing. Bad definitely bad, because if there's someone she didn't want to expose herself to, it was Derek Marshall. Lucky for both of them, Derek is very patient and could wait forever if that's what it takes for Mckenna to accept him, all she has to do is yes. The problem is, was it possible for her to love one, without losing her love for the other? She has 3 months to figure it out