I love you

I didn't know my best friend --- my only ever crush.... was homophobic..

i fell in love with him i didnt mean to say "i love you"... was it too soon? no.. it didnt matter.. he still hates me. he is still homophobic.

now im left alone. with him gone. away and scared. why am i like this? why did i fall in love with him? why am i gay?! why am i a sinner?!?!

love is fake. i hate it. i hate everyone.