"My head is swimming"
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Last published Sun, Apr 26, 2020
A poetic story about a teenage girl struggling to fight the dark grasps of depression, trying to be happy. She also has undiagnosed depersonalization disorder. She has an irrational fear that everyone secretly hates her. She feels...but her emotions are cloudy. She has made a lot of friends, but anxiety makes it hard for her to spend time with them out of school. Many people have taken a romantic interest in her but she struggles with being polyamorous, while others don't accept it. She struggles and wants to escape to one of her fantasy worlds. Will she ever find a way out of this mess?
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