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The Struggle

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bi-sexual boy-pov coming-of-age fear pressure

Fear is a powerful thing.

Some say it's the most influential emotion. 

It can appear in everyday situations; whether it be presenting a presentation or riding a rollercoaster. It overwhelms you. 

Fear consumes me.

My every thought. My every motion. My everyday. 

For my hidden secrets are threatening to release themselves - to let the world know my mystery, because my mind is too full of wondrous darkness and it wishes to be set free of these ridden horrors. 

But I can't let that happen.

I never will let that happen.All Rights Reserved

bi-sexual boy-pov coming-of-age fear pressure

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