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Still Holding On

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abuse anxiety betrayal catfish cheating dark gxg lies lonely love lovestory manipulation mystery newadult newstory onlinerelationship panicattacks psychological romance sad suicide teenfiction teenromance youngadult

It is said that as human beings we form our characters trough our experiences. Our first years, our family, our friends our relationships. These experiences all seem to have an impact on who we are and who we eventually become. 

We all have our role models, our hero's. Those people who at one point crossed or path and left their mark. Those life changing experiences that form our very own being and change our perspective on what we thought we knew. 

Everyone has that one person who knows them better than anyone else, your bestie the one you share all your secrets with. Your sibling who annoyingly enough knows more then they should about you and is always there. Your partner who you chose to share your life with. I thought I had found mine, that one person, whom I could confined in. 

Who wouldn't judge me... my shoulder to cry on. Could it be? I thought so!  I so needed it to be so! but I was by far mistaken. No one could have warned me that a simple message would turn my life into a living hell! No one could have saved me from walking into something that would shatter my heart beyond repair.All Rights Reserved

abuse anxiety betrayal catfish cheating dark gxg lies lonely love lovestory manipulation mystery newadult newstory onlinerelationship panicattacks psychological romance sad suicide teenfiction teenromance youngadult

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One Bite....(Derek Hale love story) by Sweethwicth41

Knowing you wasn't a mistake. Life separated us for many personal reason. I'm trying to forget you but the truth....I didn't.... I'm just ignoring....the truth. Now, I'm back carried a past that I didn't ask or wanted carried a wound of that life in my heart. We supposed to be strangers after all this time... We supposed to be heal from each other... For the distance through time with nothing in common between us after 3 years. We knowing each other for circumstance..study ...friends...family.. .even love. I have a brother that I love very much. Who would give his life for me the same to keep you away. Love wasn't in my calendar but also never leaves my side. It's like times never past just freeze and only took one bite to make my world upside down. My whole life.. I'm only reading about it in book, in legends there's not supposed to existing. I never believe about it... Only that night. When everything in my life changed forever..

REDEMPTION by Nyctophile_22

2nd Place in The Dragon Fire Awards 3rd Place in Science Fiction in the Tricolour Terrenial Awards. " No one was truly your own in this world. Everyone, in the deepest parts of their hearts, cared only for themselves. And even if true love did exist, you can never truly understand someone. You can never know what is going on in the other person's head. For all you know, the person can be looking at you with loving eyes, full of bliss, but really they are battling their own, inner demons, keeping secrets buried and telling lies to cover up. That's what people do. That's what everyone does. Keep their demons buried and tell lies to keep them buried. And people love so that they can heal, so that they can find relief from continuously battling their demons. To have someone to share their burden with. And havoc occurs when the demon is stronger than your will, when love isn't enough to keep the monster at bay. " A girl, torn between her heart and mind. A boy, set out to avenge his parents. A pair of twins with only one, deadly goal in their life. A country ruled and oppressed by a power-hungry mad man. Will they ever be free?

The leaving 11 years on on going stopped up dating for a awhile by CarolOBrien1

The leaving. It was hard, tragic , painful, yet it had to be done, I needed to save my life. I didn't want to start again, this would be the story of finding myself, pulling myself back together, reuniting the happy go lucky youngster I had once been. The shock of leaving took more of a toll on me than I thought it would. I had asked two people to help me move out of the house I had shared with my partner for 8 years, we had been together 23 years in total. The move was done in total secrecy, my partner could never know in advance, it was a very scary time. I had moved various things out of the house and secured a rent on a property nearby. The house I picked was near the School the children went to, and my oldest lad was going to be near his best friend. My Mother told me of the property it was advertised on the web, we both went and had a look, even that was scary, I didn't want to be seen by anyone and became paranoid that I would be caught out. For many months I lived on a new kind of fear, the fear of someone finding out that I planned to leave my abusive partner, though of course no one knew my seemingly happy, funny, generous partner was abusive. Finding the house was one thing, getting the various companies to connect the house and exchanging the information of my current address so they could varify that I was, who I said I was almost drove me mad. The day came to leave, My Mother and a very dear Friend came round as early as possible, we packed as much as we could. This included taking the boys clothes, bedding, toys, stuff from the garden, my stuff. We had 3 cars the packing seem to take all day. By the end we had to get going to be able to unpack, leaving me time to pick up the boys from School and settle them in their new home. I couldn't do it at first,I started to cry then scream, to leave the world I had put so much of my life into, and now in a split second would be leaving was breaking my heart.

Another World Of Me...(Ongoing) by Sarae77qy

Sometimes, all we need as humans is love...not a soulmate kind of love but a love that we get from our own people i.e parents, a friend or even just a person who gives you shoulder to cry on. A safe safe for us. But if a child doesn't get those love it makes them empty like me.. they become stonehearted, without emotions humans who don't even knowing what love actually means.... I am just living with a body that has soul in it and is said to survive in this big world that she didn't even need. I have so many questions who am I? What is my past? What happened to my parents? Did they really throw me away? Does anyone really ever cared for me? I lived my whole life in a gang who saved me from falling into death and i was fighting to survive every day....... but then one day I meet a beautiful girl. She has the ability to make me human... like everybody else she can make me feel emotions and love which i didn't even know I needed.. can she really make me a human?? Can I become a normal human or is it too late for it? Will i ever get the answer to all these questions??

Cold Water by adaline_meadows

[BWWM] I was only twelve years old when the world turned cold. The day my mom died in that car accident, I felt like someone had dumped a bucket of ice water over my heart. My dad, who had always been my hero, suddenly became a stranger, filled with rage and blame. He couldn't see that I was hurting, too; he only saw me as a reminder of his loss. The accusations cut deep. He said it was my fault for being there, for not doing something to save her. For being the reason she was in the car in the first place. In the years that followed, things only got worse. The abuse started gradually-a harsh word here, a shove there-but it escalated, leaving scars that I carried long after the physical pain faded. I was drowning in my own despair, struggling to keep my head above water while my father's anger raged like a storm around me. I only had a break from his anger when I started living with Aunt Dina-my mom's older sister. Well, that was because she found me nearly dead on my bed after I took a dozen pills. I was tired of living. I had hit rock bottom. The harsh whispers that followed me around and the stares at school. I pretended not to notice, like it didn't bother me. But it did. I was alone. Then came Athalia, a ray of sunshine cutting through my darkness. With her, I felt something I hadn't felt in years-happiness. She became my light through the darkness and my lifeline. ••••••••••• ● Warnings ⚠️ ~ Mention of suicide ~ Anxiety attacks ~ Rape attempt ~ Mention of self-harm ~ Depression

Doubts 2 by SherryB915

Part 2 of "Doubts" It was that same feeling I felt deep inside me the day my grandparents left me. My stomach began to cringe. My throat was in knots. My breathing had gotten hard. My instincts were telling me something just wasn't right. I felt useless and alone... I had always knew pain my whole life but this was next level. That feeling of holding back and regret filled my veins with agony. I was lost in my thoughts. My heart felt colder and colder with every minute that passed by. Who am I ? Who am I really ? What is my purpose in this life that I lived? That I once knew ..... why did this bad luck fall upon my life? What did I do to deserve this ? I'm cursed. I have to be. I cried so much in that hospital bed that no tears seemed to want to fall anymore. I had no tears left in me to shed. When Akeem left this room, I knew it would be the last time that I would see him. My better half. My Ace. My love. My husband. My life. Gone. Forever. It wasn't confirmed but I knew it. I just knew it. Life fucked me hard. So why not throw it back.

BROKEN VOWS (Broken Redemption Book 1) by ArianaClarkAuthor

Choosing her cost me everything I'd ever loved... including her. It's why I left the small town where I grew up and vowed never to return. I'm no longer the golden boy with a bright future they all remember. Instead, I carry the scars of a tortured past. A broken man deemed unfit, even by the Navy SEALs he'd dedicated the past decade to serve. What was supposed to be a quick trip to sell my parent's property turned into this twisted journey that forced me to confront my demons. And then there she was. My first love, and deepest regret. The woman who still owns every piece of my blackened heart. When she asked for my time, I couldn't refuse. Now I can't walk away. Not after hearing of the danger her husband, a missing FBI agent, has brought to her doorstep. After everything, I owe her my help. It's why I offer to protect her and her two little girls from the danger circling them. It's a vow I never should have made, given the trail of bodies I've left in my wake. Like the harbinger of death, I'm the last man either of us should trust.

Evolution by andshesmiles

There are a lot of things you don't really think about until they happen to you. Take rape, for instance. I always thought, "That won't happen to me. I have a boyfriend. I trust him. He would never take advantage of me like that..." I couldn't have been more wrong. Love in this day and age is often confused for manipulation and abuse. The warning signs are here. The things we say will tell us everything that is wrong. You are worth more than what you think you are. It's not your fault. If they tell you otherwise, get out. Burn the bridge. Always remember someone is waiting for you to walk into their life. Someone needs you. Someone loves you. Getting away from all of the wrong people and finding the right ones could save you. I can promise you right now that it saved me. These are the journal entries and selected poems from my first experience of love that left a unpleasant taste in my mouth- quite literally. I am putting this out for the whole world to see because I hope everyone will learn from my experience. People can see. We have no excuses to continue living our lives in ignorance. ...WARNING... HARMFUL THEMES INCLUDING MENTION OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM, AND RAPE. THIS HAS EXPLICIT CONTENT. RECOVERY AND AWARENESS IS THE PURPOSE OF SHARING. DO NOT READ IF THESE THEMES ARE OFFENSIVE OR HARMFUL TO YOU.

THAT FIRST BREAK (Broken Redemption Prequel 1) by ArianaClarkAuthor

Choosing her cost me everything I'd ever loved... including her. I had everything a guy could ask for, a loving family, the perfect small-town life, and a promising future I had worked hard for. It should have been enough. She was off-limits, my parent's best friend's daughter, practically my sister. I fought my feelings, pretending our soul-deep connection didn't exist. When she confessed she felt the same, I pushed her away, believing our friendship mattered more than temporary infatuation. That she agreed should have come as a relief, but it left me with this void I didn't know how to fill. It's what drove me to the bonfire that night. Right there, with our friends as witnesses, I claimed her. Told her I loved her and made her promises I shouldn't have made. Hours later, it all came crashing down in a whirlwind of fire and ashes. That one split-second choice to go after a girl that wasn't meant for me cost me everything I loved. I never should have crossed that line or given in. It's why she'll forever be my greatest love and deepest regret. This tragic story is the beginning of our end...

In Love With Blindfolds On by cjacks1124

I gave the best of myself to someone who didn't have anything to lose. I didn't know how to avoid my lover's toxic and abusive flames. My lover's twisted words were like a maze inside of my head that I couldn't escape. Sadly, my lover's actions hypnotized my thoughts and paralyzed my thinking. I learned the hard way that love isn't leaning in for a kiss, and a fist meets you halfway. Love isn't being a punching bag because someone decided they wanted to beat on you today. Love isn't saying I love you just because someone wants to keep you to themselves. I tried to be there for my lover, but I learned it is impossible to fix the broken pieces when the glass has shattered. There will always be pieces that are not repairable. However, I kept going right back to the person who I needed to walk away from. I was afraid, and I wasn't brave enough to wake up from this nightmare! I made the choice to suffer when life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. Will I find the courage to know my worth and know that I deserve better than the distasteful lies that are whispered in my ears? Will I have the strength to fight my insecurities? Will, I set myself free, or will I let my love be the death of me?

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One Bite....(Derek Hale love story) cover

REDEMPTION cover

The leaving 11 years on on going stopped up dating for a awhile cover

Another World Of Me...(Ongoing) cover

Cold Water cover

BROKEN VOWS (Broken Redemption Book 1) cover

Evolution cover

THAT FIRST BREAK (Broken Redemption Prequel 1) cover

In Love With Blindfolds On cover

One Bite....(Derek Hale love story)

Knowing you wasn't a mistake. Life separated us for many personal reason. I'm trying to forget you but the truth....I didn't.... I'm just ignoring....the truth. Now, I'm back carried a past that I didn't ask or wanted carried a wound of that life in my heart. We supposed to be strangers after all this time... We supposed to be heal from each other... For the distance through time with nothing in common between us after 3 years. We knowing each other for circumstance..study ...friends...family.. .even love. I have a brother that I love very much. Who would give his life for me the same to keep you away. Love wasn't in my calendar but also never leaves my side. It's like times never past just freeze and only took one bite to make my world upside down. My whole life.. I'm only reading about it in book, in legends there's not supposed to existing. I never believe about it... Only that night. When everything in my life changed forever..