Save Me. ,From Myself.
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There are things we cannot say out loud. Words we would rather not hear, and yet they live within. There are memories so cold a shoulder, things that spasm and writhe and spit all over our insides with the aim to snuff out our very lives.
Because of who I am and where I come from, I cannot share these feelings in my real world. I have noone to lean on and reminiscence over the tiny things that pebble in my heart.
I only write because when I wrote 2 years ago, I managed to survive again.
So here I am dear world, and this time, I'm not running away from memories or people or things.
"I'm running away from myself..."
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