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Behind The Tears

EmilyMcDonald123

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Parts 4
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Reads 183
Votes 14
Parts 4
Time 16m

EmilyMcDonald123

anorexia bulimia disorder fiction teen

No one can feel it. It's only me. The walls are closing in and I can't breathe ...... I can't breathe. 

What would you do if you had a constant, nagging voice inside your head? One that haunted your every waking moment, and invaded your  dreams? 

If no matter how many times you looked in the mirror, you couldn't find one thing that you liked? What if you were so desperate to achieve the unachievable goal of perfection that you would do anything? 

This is the story of me.All Rights Reserved

anorexia bulimia disorder fiction teen

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