Miscellaneous ✔
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Miscellaneous is a way for me to take a breath.
On the other hand, it's a way for you to take a look at my story, my inner thoughts, and struggles.
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What's this strange feeling? - I feel like a part of me has been complete. I would have never believed that in this short amount of time I would be able to feel the weight on my shoulders that I had carried with me for years just... disappear into thin air. I'm on the verge of crying with happiness! Miscellaneous has been a journey and I feel like I can breathe better now that... I've completed it. I might just be a little scared for what's next - I want to continue this, what should I write about now that all my struggles and inner demons have been thought-out and put into words? I guess I'll have fun finding out. I want to say that I'm very grateful to anyone reading this, you made me feel heard and at the end of the day, that's what matters. I simply want to say, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Please stay safe everyone ♡
Sincerely,
Dee.
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November 2020 Update: I decided to write this to let you know that "Miscellaneous" didn't make the weight I had/have on my shoulders disappear into thin air (even though at the time it felt like it). Things got a lot worse after I finished writing this collection; I went through one of the toughest times in my entire life! And although "Miscellaneous" did help (in a way), it also brought to the surface deep-rooted issues I had. What I mean by all of this is that everything is more complicated than it seems. If you find yourself struggling again after you thought you had solved your problems, don't give up. There will always be a light at the end of the tunel!
Sincerely,
Dee.
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