I Never Found Love
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  • Parts 12
  • Time 1h 50m
Ongoing, First published Apr 25, 2020
Mature
"I'm not stupid, Gray," He says with his abnormal calm demeanor. 

I looked down to see the handle of his gun tucked in his sweatpants, contrasting against his lighter skin.

"I have a name, you know?" I respond, ignoring the weapon that stuck out from his waistband.

He was a few millimeters away from me, close enough that I could feel the heat of his breath. Funny thing is, he wasn't intimidating. The darkness hid most of his features.

"I know," He says, crossing over his inked chest. 

 "I just don't care enough to use it."
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