Dear diary
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Dear diary,
I think I'm dying.
but i cant really be sure until my head stops spinning and the hurtful words pop up slower.
My brain feels like its over loaded with a virus-my emails spam file got loose in my head. It keeps going and going never ending-please.
- poetry from the sad sick mind
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