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The girl behind her smile

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Reads 30,915
Votes 555
Parts 40
Time 5h 8m

Mature

- TW: mentions of ED and depression 

BOOK 1 OF THE LOST SERIES
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He swallows, taking a small step forwards towards me, "I know it's really hard to believe my words right now. But I would never intentionaly hurt you like I did. I keep my promises, and I uphold them as much as I can. And I meant every word of my apology Eliza, back then at the rink, and now at your door."
 
"Your apology can't change the past, it can't heal the wounds you made." I reply quietly. 

"No, but time can. And I am going to do every fucking thing I can to prove to you how much I meant what I said." 

"It's a waste of time."  
 
"Not mine," He lets a singular heartbeat pass before continuing, "I think you're worth every second of it."

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Eliza Hayashi - A 16 year old girl who is dealing with the recent loss of her father, and the tribulations that come with grief. Her heart is always heavy but she never falters to hide the weight it carries, smiling and pretending has become the new normal for her.

Jasper Hastings - A transfer student, who seems to have the entire school wrapped around his fingers, with money, power and influence, this 17 year old can get away with everything. Harbouring secrets, and an entirely different persona under his aloof smile, he chooses Eliza to becomes new muse.  Angered by her distaste towards him, her pain becomes his goal - until it doesn't

With secrets impending in every hallway, and rivalry between the people she loves, follow Eliza as she unveils the truth about herself and her family - and discover how she deals with her conflicting feelings towards the one boy her twin despises.
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- the first few chapters are a teeny bit cringe, but my writing does develop as the story progresses :)
- I will come back once I've finished the story to re-edit and improve earlier chapters!
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credits to canva for the cover :)
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RANKS:
#1 - DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY - 31/03/2023
#8 - DYSFUNCTIONAL - 11/11/2023
#3 - DYSFUNCTIONAL - 22/07/2023All Rights Reserved

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