The Anxiety
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MatureOngoing6m
Last published Fri, May 1, 2020
Life has been filed with constant confusion; From the pain, to the reality of it all.
The constant worrying is all i can feel; life is a reality through the eye of the beholder.
I have no recollection of why life is so painful.
Nor do i know why, i feel this constant voice telling me things that have not happened yet. Why do i worry? Is it my past? Was it the mental abuse? Is it the constant heartbreak? The constant lies that i'm told? The hope i gather, just to be thrown back in my face?
Why are we told promises, that end up in lies or failures?
I don't know. I'm sure no one truly knows
But let me welcome you to my mind. My pain; my mental pain. My struggles. My fears.
Let me bring you to the core of my brain
Let me show you where it all began
Let me bring you to my demons
My Anxiety
A little truth of reality never killed anyone
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