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When life gets out of hand, plans change and her past comes to get her. 
Will she be able to keep up her facade?

Or will she let her hidden, true self come to the surface?

Will she be able to keep all the promises she ever made; or will she break them, one, by one?

What if friendship turns into more, even though she's trying so hard to fight it.

And what happens, when the demons in Emily's head take over and she loses control over everything around her?
When her heart tells her to keep fighting but her mind won't.

Who will be able to save her from her darkness?


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Trigger Warning
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"It's not your fault, Sweetheart. I made my decision. You couldn't have changed it." She stands in front of me. Her eyes are bloodshot red as usual. Her lips blue and her face pale, the sling around her throat.
"I want you back. I miss you so much." I cry and she pulls me into a  hug. I breathe in her scent. She's ice cold and I can't make out a heartbeat. "I know you do. I love you so much, keep that in your mind, my love." My grip around her tightens and I bury my face in her chest.
"Please don't let go." I sob as her grip around me becomes loose. 
"No mom. Stay!" Her arms fall down at my sides and she starts vanishing in my arms. "No! Mommy! Come back! I need you!" I fall onto my knees and start shaking.

I sit up straight in my bed. Meeting mom's eyes in the picture on my nightstand. "Fuck." I whisper, wiping away the tears under my eyes.
My head pounds and I'm still shaking a little.All Rights Reserved

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" this all is your fucking fault" all of a sudden I was slammed against my locker,towering over me was my arch enemy 'Sam the Dam'. My head was pounding against the hard surface,I hissed in pain glaring straight to him. He was fuming with anger like a predator ready to attack his prey. He stretched his right hand to grab my neck and placed the left one on my shoulder to keep me still. He lowered his chin to my ear and snarled "you are fucking dead 'Meth' ,if I have a slightest clue of your involvement in this shit, I will hunt you down till your last breath". I was choking on air and my vision was a blur ,for a while I thought I was going to die .Mustering all the courage that I could have found, I yanked him away from me. Mean while I was gasping for the air, that dickhead had his usual cocky smirk. I aimed at him and broke his nose ,blood oozing in droplets" want to mess with me Sammy! , first of all clear your own shit, you son of a bitch! "with that I punched hard-on his lower abdomen while he was still holding his bleeding nose, I left the locker room with a sense of victory. Two competent boxers who can't stand each other for a moment without insulting.... Ultimately fall in love. Man*man gay romance leave if you are homophobic.

My Wildest Dreams by fhsgctcusbf

Josh and Katie have been best friends since he first moved nextdoor midway through freshman year. They were attached to the hip and acted like they've known each other for years. Josh Parker was the all American boy who all the girls wanted, including Katie. As Katie and Josh's friendship blossomed she quickly formed a crush on Josh, but as the years progressed, her crush turned into love. Five years after leaving Miami brokenhearted after finding out about Josh's engagement to his childhood sweetheart. Katie unexpectedly reunites with her former best friend, and Josh quickly realizes that his feelings for her are not just platonic anymore. * As I'm walking out of work I get a call from my brother to pick my niece up from school. For the past 4 years that little girl has had me wrapped around her finger and I wouldn't have it any other way. Unfortunately I got stuck in traffic on the way over so I'm late for pick up. Once I get to Melanie's classroom I fill out the sign out sheet that's on the wall and make my way into the classroom. I faintly hear Melanie laughing so I know she's not upset from me being late. "Hey I'm so sorry. I got stuck in traff..." I said stopping mid sentence, stunned at the woman in front of me. Standing in front of me is someone I considered one of the most important people to me back in highschool. As soon as I looked into those Caribbean blue that I used to know so well, I knew it was her. It takes her a few seconds to realize who I am. She stands there stunned. We continue to stare at each other until she breaks the silence. "Josh?" She asks not believing it's actually me. "Hey Katie girl." Mature content Sexual scenes Inappropriate language (Book #1 of the Dreams series)

Best of Friends by sellaturcica

""Kitten, you're worried about something, and you cannae lie. You're picking at your hands and looking around to clean up my room. Unlucky for you, my room is very clean," he said, "Now what are you worrying about so much?" I stopped picking at my cuticles. It was kind of weird that he could see me doing something and read me like a book before I could even realize I was doing it. I felt my heart pound in my chest. "Well, it's just this whole pretending to date you thing," I shrugged, "How far do we have to take it? Do we have to do it in front of our friends? Do we have to do it in public because obviously we ran into Olivia today and we weren't planning on it. Oh shit, what if she sees you with another girl? I mean, what would happen then? What if she sees me talking to another guy? How long is this going to go on? What if we have to kiss in front of Olivia? I mean, it's not that I don't want to kiss you but--" I rambled on nervously. Iain smirked and walked towards me, and the next thing I knew, his lips were on mine, and we were kissing." When Kit's older brother, Ben, finally makes it with the girl he's been crushing on for four years, only to find out she's wary of family, he lies and calls his baby sister his best friend's girlfriend, turning everyone's life upside down. While Kit's struggling with the impending doom of college and parents that could divorce at any second, she's also juggling a fake relationship with her brother's hot best friend, Iain. As if that weren't complicated enough, a chemistry sparks between Iain, igniting flames and destroying the crumbling world around them. RATED M for drug and alcohol use and sexual themes

The Troubles of Angy by Haanjy

Alex held fast, his eyes never leaving hers, his grip gentle yet unyielding. "Tell me, Angy," he whispered again, his voice low and persuasive. "What has you so tense that you're so bent on getting away from me?" Angy's heart raced, her mind racing with excuses and evasions. But Alex's eyes seemed to see right through her, to the secrets she kept hidden deep within. She felt like a bird caught in a snare, unable to escape the gentle yet unyielding pressure of his gaze. As the music swirled around them, Angy knew she was at a crossroads. She could continue to evade and hide, or she could take a chance and reveal the truth. "Hey..." He urged in a trail. "I don't belong here." She finally said, swallowing a lump in her throat. "What?" "I don't belong here, Alex." She repeated, more firmly this time. "This... being here with you, I don't belong here." "What's going on? What nonsense are you saying?" He paused. "Did you hear Charlotte?" He gauged her acutely, trying to work out the truth as he felt his heart standing on the steep precipice of fear of her answer. Angy resisted the urge to recoil. Charlotte had said something to Alex. How much did he know? **** What secrets lie beneath his carefully constructed facade? And what mysteries shroud Angy, veiling her true identity from even herself? Could it be that the veins of their past ran deeper than they had envisaged? Delve into the enigma of their intertwined destinies, where every twist and turn reveals deeper layers of intrigue. Don't hesitate. Embark on this journey of discovery, where the shadows of the past converge with the uncertainty of the future. Unravel the tangled threads of their lives, for in their collision lies the key to unlocking the secrets that bind them together.

Black And Grey by Melanin3000

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Love In Boxing Ring

" this all is your fucking fault" all of a sudden I was slammed against my locker,towering over me was my arch enemy 'Sam the Dam'. My head was pounding against the hard surface,I hissed in pain glaring straight to him. He was fuming with anger like a predator ready to attack his prey. He stretched his right hand to grab my neck and placed the left one on my shoulder to keep me still. He lowered his chin to my ear and snarled "you are fucking dead 'Meth' ,if I have a slightest clue of your involvement in this shit, I will hunt you down till your last breath". I was choking on air and my vision was a blur ,for a while I thought I was going to die .Mustering all the courage that I could have found, I yanked him away from me. Mean while I was gasping for the air, that dickhead had his usual cocky smirk. I aimed at him and broke his nose ,blood oozing in droplets" want to mess with me Sammy! , first of all clear your own shit, you son of a bitch! "with that I punched hard-on his lower abdomen while he was still holding his bleeding nose, I left the locker room with a sense of victory. Two competent boxers who can't stand each other for a moment without insulting.... Ultimately fall in love. Man*man gay romance leave if you are homophobic.