Why Me | Book 1
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AlyGreen702
Complete, First published May 01, 2020
Mature
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When life gets out of hand, plans change and her past comes to get her. 
Will she be able to keep up her facade?

Or will she let her hidden, true self come to the surface?

Will she be able to keep all the promises she ever made; or will she break them, one, by one?

What if friendship turns into more, even though she's trying so hard to fight it.

And what happens, when the demons in Emily's head take over and she loses control over everything around her?
When her heart tells her to keep fighting but her mind won't.

Who will be able to save her from her darkness?


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Trigger Warning
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"It's not your fault, Sweetheart. I made my decision. You couldn't have changed it." She stands in front of me. Her eyes are bloodshot red as usual. Her lips blue and her face pale, the sling around her throat.
"I want you back. I miss you so much." I cry and she pulls me into a  hug. I breathe in her scent. She's ice cold and I can't make out a heartbeat. "I know you do. I love you so much, keep that in your mind, my love." My grip around her tightens and I bury my face in her chest.
"Please don't let go." I sob as her grip around me becomes loose. 
"No mom. Stay!" Her arms fall down at my sides and she starts vanishing in my arms. "No! Mommy! Come back! I need you!" I fall onto my knees and start shaking.

I sit up straight in my bed. Meeting mom's eyes in the picture on my nightstand. "Fuck." I whisper, wiping away the tears under my eyes.
My head pounds and I'm still shaking a little.
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