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Parts 17
Time 2h 7m

A_fantasy_reality

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"I'm scared that I'm not living. I'm alive, sure, but am I really living? Marcus Aurelius said "It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live." Sometimes I feel it, briefly. I feel a glimpse of life with every heartbeat, like it courses through my veins. And then it's gone. I spend the rest of my time either grieving its lost or chasing it. I'm just scared that I'll never catch it. Never fully feel it. It terrifies me that I might learn how to die before I learn how to live."
When Jose and Maya meet at a support group called "Healing Hands," they begin an argumentative and profound friendship. They have very opposing views on life and death. They are darkness and light. Inseperable. But what happens when one gets left behind? Join them on a tale of adventure, love and loss. 

TRIGGER WARNING: THIS STORY MENTIONS SUICIDE, MENTAL ILLNESS AND DEATH. This story in no way supports suicide. If you are feeling suicidal or need help with mental illnesses, reach out to someone.  (No graphic scenes are mentioned in this story and trigger warnings will be present for chapters that surround these themes.)
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