"I'm fine"

So there i sat in my dark room with the music blasting, and the tears falling down my cheeck as the makeup followed right behind, and the blade gliding down my wrists more times then i could count, i's close my eyes and push a little harder and go a little faster as if i was playing the violen.

And just like that, the pain was gone for that slight secont. I felt nothing, i was numb, i was "fine".