I never thought that I would end up this way... I also always thought that cancer didn't affect you until the doctors told you that you had it because you just didn't know it before...I kept my secret from everyone for a reason. Now that they know, I feel like an outcast. My life is like an open book now. There's no going back to the freshness of being ordinary. There is no ordinary anymore. I'm me. They're them. There's no changing that. Only one boy understands me. And that's how it should be.