There wasn't an "us" before this. There wasn't one after. There never was. I couldn't be in love with my best friend. For god's sake! Best friend since we were in diapers. I said okay to everything, but not everything was okay. It was far from okay. But, you would believe me if I said I was just dandy. All this was perfect. Every girl's dream is to have her friendship with her guy best friend, screw that, with her only best friend. Her only friend! That is every girls damn dream! But this was much worse than a dream, a nightmare, anything. I was living it.