Midnight Thoughts
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Last published Thu, May 14, 2020
I have been through hell and back. I really don't know when it all started but I have been penning the pain down for years so I thought I would share. My advice if you are going to that hell is simple walk through it like you own the place. Here some of my thoughts that occurred past midnight.
WARNING: It will be very dark and as my pen name suggests I have a fucked up mind.
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