The Fallen (Kylo Ren x Reader)

You go by Rose now to keep your identity under wraps. You have been running for as long as you remember. You decided to train with Jedi Master Luke Skywalker after your father left your mother and you. Your mother always wanted the best for you, so you left so one day you could protect her from any danger. Once your power grew, so did your fear. You felt darkness and so did Master Luke. You left and never looked back. After hearing that a friend of yours, Ben Solo, burned the Temple down, you shut yourself off from the force, changed your name, and ran. You didn't want to pick sides since you and Ben were so close, but you didn't want to hurt innocents. Since then you have been roaming the galaxy, alone, doing...questionable... jobs. One job, though, forced you into the First Orders path -- and Kylo Ren's.

I'm already writing this fic and I just remembered that their is a character named Rose and I love her so we will just have to compromise and both be named Rose because I like it.

Warning!
There is a lot of swearing...and smut. I've never even written a fan-fic let alone one with smut, so any advice would be great! Also, I don't have a specific place in the sequels that this takes place, but their will be some parallels.
Depicts: Substance abuse, swearing (I'll update this list as the story continues)
I have no clue how long this will be, but it's a work in progress.