Zayn Malik is not depressed. Zayn does cut though, scars lining his arms from years of doing it. But Zayn isn’t depressed, he’s not anything. He doesn’t know when he stopped feeling, when he went numb, but he does know that he can feel when he drags a razor across his skin. He feels afterwards too, relief washes over him as he is reminded that he is alive, he can feel. But then his mom found out, now he’s living in The Institute.
Niall Horan is depressed. He’s well aware of his depression that has had no real trigger. He had it all back in highschool, he was popular, captain of the footie team, he wasn’t even bullied after coming out. But he was depressed. He would look in the mirror and all he would see was fat, globs of pale skin in all the wrong places. So the simple solution was to stop eating. But that didn’t work, Niall couldn’t not eat. Plan B went into effect then - throwing up. He had only been doing it for a few weeks when his brother found out, now he’s being sent to The Institute.
Join the journey of Niall and Zayn learning how to feel again. Friends come along the way, a schizophrenic, mute and a multiple personality disorder patient. They’re an odd group, but they get along and slowly live their lives in The Institute.
Harry and Louis have been best friends since the X-Factor. Ever since One Direction formed and became famous Harry has been struggling to find himself....or the guy he used to be before the fame. He's sick of the hate on twitter. Harry has found a way to relieve his stress and anger...but is it a good way to let it all out? Worst of all he's fallen for his best mate, Louis, but doesn't want to come out as gay. Does Louis feel the same way about Harry? Will Harry be able to keep all of these secrets or will he get caught in a lie? Will he be able to fight the depression? Can Louis fix Harry on his own or will it take all of the boys' help to do so?
Update: I originally started writing this book from 2013 to around 2017-ish. I was around 13, so please excuse any errors and such.