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✧ 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 #2 𝐢𝐧 '𝐇𝐈𝐒' 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 :- Some marriage may not begin with love but, they end with it. ••••••••• "I hope you realized you made the worst fucking decision of your life." I could feel his cold icy honey brown eyes piercing through my soul. "Mahir..." He slams both of my wrists against the wall as I winces from the pain from my wrists. Tears threatening to fall down from my eyes when he tightened his grip on my wrist. "You'll never have a place in my life, let alone in my heart, do you understand?" His voice rises as he clenches his jaw tightly. I whimpered, he leans in close enough to the point where our lips were inches apart, I shuddered. "I said, do you fucking understand?" I immediately jumped in fear nodding my head. "Y-Yes."

In my life your all in or all out. It's a lesson I had to learn and had I learned it earlier, I'd have saved myself a lot of heartbreak, time, and ruin. One I take seriously to protect myself, but use sparingly cause people come and go with a purpose. At the end of the day I fight for me and mine. Therefore my mind though, my heart, soul, and trust is something I can not go half n half on.

A heart is a fragile item. That is why we need to protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely and why it means so much because some hearts are more fragile than others. Pure somehow like crystal in a world of glass. Even the way they shattered is beautiful. But when it is shattering, nothing can amend it to be a perfect again. That is a similarity between heart and crystal. There always have been bleeding from leaking scar or blemishes when someone deliberately broken it. Once it happens, they never return to the original state anymore. That is why heart or crystal need a hundred percent careful care. To avoid it from scratches with unwanted regret. Both hold same fragility and value. Both need an intensive care. The question is can people really care it as if they value themselves? Can people value them like some precious and rare gem? Or do they only take a notice when it shattered beyond repair. Unable to move on or beat for another day. No pills or expert could cure and restoring before the pain take over. This a tale about heart, the center of human vitality as well destruction once its defects. The location is in the center of the chest, just behind the physical heart. This energetic center deals with the love of self and others, compassion, empathy, kindness, relationship, intimacy, devotion, reaching out and taking in, forgiveness, hope, trust, balance, quest for peace. Cover design by PaGer @SuperSonicPaGer Copyright © August 2017 Shinouji All Rights Reserved

What happens when someone steps through those walls and runs through hands along your scars. You wonder why they won't cut away the noose but slowly you start to realize the noose is your own doing. But what happens when two people step their way through those walls? And is my heart going to get broken in the process?

Falling in love can be something beautiful, loving and being loved, giving your time, heart and soul to someone. But sometimes, it stops being beautiful, and you remember that someone can hurt you, and you can hurt someone. "I've never knew how much a broken heart could hurt, but I can assure you that breaking the heart of someone you love is even worse" Noah, Jude and Anni will learn how dangerous it's to give your heart, but they'll also learn that taking care of someone else's heart is dangerous too.

Suffering from anxiety, depression and insomnia Isabelle thinks about taking her life, her friends soon find out about her condition and begs for her to stay. She gives them 7 months to 'fix' her but if they don't/can't she'll take her life. How will this end?

What happens when love triangles form, hearts break, and dieing or being injured is a horrifying thing? Stitches and Scars. Started: September 16, 2016 Ended: December 25, 2016

The broken can never be healed. The same weak cracks will always be there no matter how hard you wish for them to fade. I am facing more grief than I can handle at the moment. Then add on my new professional hockey career and the fact that my biggest nightmare might walk free in a few months, and you get a piece of glass about to shatter into a million unsalvageable pieces. Here's to hoping everything doesn't fall apart, because there's no waking up from my fall.