Behind that Smile
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Last published Wed, Oct 1, 2014
They say past is past and present is present, but why is it people look at the past and judge me? Why do they judge my past without knowing the truth? Do they realize how much it affects me and my family? Oh, by the way. I'm Nixie Salcedo, I'm 17 and a 3rd year high school student. My life is a mess, I am a cheerful person until that day came. I wish someone would comfort me. I wish someone would understand me.
Everything change when I was transferred. I met the top 9 hotties in my school, I'm back to my cheerful self again, I have a new happy family. The more I hang out with them, the more they understand my past and eases my pain, but unexpected things happened, which worsen my pain. When will this pain end? How long do I have to keep on smiling? How should I end this pain?
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