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Trigger(n.h/z.m) ~ LarryAndZiall

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Reads 200,402
Votes 4,348
Parts 22
Time 2h 29m

Mature

boyxboy direction horan malik niall one slash zayn ziall

Self Harm is an addiction. 
An eating disorder is a constant demon in your mind. 
Depression is something you don't just 'move on' from, it's constantly there.
Having to fight the constant triggers around him, Niall Horan is slowly lapsing back into his depression. 
The strong urges are constantly there, and even having a boyfriend as perfect as Zayn Malik doesn't seem to be helping.
He knows he SHOULD be happy, but he isn't, and he thinks he's forgot how to be 'happy'.
and he's battling this alone while trying to hide it from his boyfriend.
Sooner or later it'll all get to much and he'll end up back where he started.All Rights Reserved

boyxboy direction horan malik niall one slash zayn ziall

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