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I can talk, I just choose not to

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BlackPianoKeys118

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I like words. I love them. I love hearing them and love reading them and I especially love learning them. 
I just dislike saying them out loud, because they don't come out the way as I intend them too. It's so bad that you might not be able to link me to my written words. I'm just better at writing the words down and making sense on a page than verbally.  God forbid I partake in a debate; we're losing real quick, but give me a page; a book, even a wall, and I'll give you my organized thoughts.

But I'm trying to fix this, I'm going to struggle to try to be famous if I can't open my mouth during interviews (This girl plans to be the next big thing).

Watch me navigate through situations being the socially challenged being I am.All Rights Reserved

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