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DELUSIONS

annabethgranger666

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Reads 1,060
Votes 247
Parts 18
Time 46m

annabethgranger666

anxiety depressing hallucinations heartbreaking lonely nightmare paranoia psycho relapse romance seizure shizophrenia shortchapters shortstory sucidal therapies voices

I thought my life was perfect and I  had it all figured out. Something happened and now I'm stuck in therapy with Dr. Lee. But I don't need therapy I'm ok, at least that's what the voices have told me...

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*I keep having this dream 
where i love someone and they love me
It felt so real, it felt so real that my heart breaks
every single morning.*
                          - Abbey Glover
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Thank youu  @Myths_Allegories  for the beautiful cover!!!!!All Rights Reserved

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Saving The Angel **Completed** by iDreamBigTyme

He's not a living creature. I can't touch him. But I can see him and hear him. And I'm in love with him. He's my guardian angel. I want him to phsycially be on Earth with me. Although that's going to be a challenge. Angel is my Angel. Coincidence huh? He's my soul mate. I want him. I can't have him though. Angel is going to be taken away from me. I don't know when and i don't know where but after that, I will never see Angel again. No matter how hard I try. He's not going to be there. Unless I can save him. Saving him could mean that he's human and he can be on Earth with me. But Saving him could also mean that I'm dead. I have to go through so many obstacles and take down so many people before Angel can be turned human. It could cause me to lose my life or Angel's spirit will be distroyed. Will I take the risk to make him human? Well let's just say, I'd do anything to make him human.

If You Love Me by slybatspidow

"If you love me, you won't leave me." Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation. With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook. A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too. She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him. Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom? --- Featured On: @NA: Take a seat and let it be | Mature Content and 18+ reading list @NA: You deserve the world | Mental Health reading list Ambys Top Picks New Adult 2023

Doubts 2 by SherryB915

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Perception of an Angel by Hope_Alexandria_Ray

I wrote this book of poems based off my struggles with mental health, heartbreak, and love. I wrote it to help other people who struggle with mental illness as well, I named the book perception of an angel, because I see the people who struggle the most, as angels. And through our perception of things and emotions, we will find our strength. Our reason to live. We got to keep pushing through the hard and find our fight deep inside ourselves, to reach the good, find your good perception and live; ⚠️⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ⚠️⚠️ ~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!TALKS OF MENTAL HEALTH AND STRUGGLES ALL THAT COMES WITH IT!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ -BPD -Bipolar -PTSD -other mental health If you or a friend or loved one relates and find yourself struggling please seek help, your life matters, and you matter. Here are some links to help you find support and help if you need it: Crisis Text Line: Text "START" to 741-741 LGBT Youth Suicide Hotline: 1-866-4-U-TREVOR Military Veterans Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (Press 1) National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) Childhelp (1.800.4ACHILD) ... National Sexual Assault Hotline (1.800.656.HOPE) National domestic violence hotline (1-800.799.SAFE)

How It Ends【Vylad X Reader】[ Completed ] by Mariko_Akiyama

CONTENT CONTAINS : INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS MENTAL ILLNESS SEXUAL CONTENT DRUG USE ABUSE TORTURE GORE VIOLENCE & STRONG LANGUAGE IF YOUR EASILY TRIGGERED OR UNCOMFORTABLE, DO NOT READ!! • " But what? " " It doesn't feel real enough " " What does that mean? " " I don't know " " It just doesn't feel right when I'm with either one of them " " Why'd you do that? " " Why'd you let me? " " I don't know " • Being a sadistic person is not fun, basically seeing people in pain involves seeing my family in pain. Although, I have a little control of it as long as I can find my brother. Three years went by and I still haven't find my brother. I was close one day but it was a dead end and instead, I was capture one day and got sexually assulted. I was scared, mad, it was just terrifying when a guy saved me. I never knew how my future holds, how I will handle my sadistic side. When he helped me, he shared his feelings with me and I started to feel the same. He made my future for me until I know How It Ends. How does this ends?, Tragic ending or happy ending?, Who is this 'he'?, What made this person sadistic?, What feelings are they sharing? Read this book to know. Credit : To a series called 'The Vampire Diaries' [ Completed ] Started : 1st April 2020. Finished : 5th July 2020. [ Highest Ranking : #70 in Aphmau ] [ #4 in Vylad ] [ #1 in Vylad X Reader ] Disclaimers : I do not own ANY of the characters only the ideas, they belong to a youtuber called Aphmau, I don't own any of the songs either or the pictures, except Y/n, it belongs to you. There are a few characters that I OWN. My OC : Xelora Kiselyov Catherine Fox Ash Lee Mandrell Natalie Rosetta Mandrell Coraline Alycia Jones Mariko Akiyama

Altered by LuellaOpal

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Saving The Angel Completed

He's not a living creature. I can't touch him. But I can see him and hear him. And I'm in love with him. He's my guardian angel. I want him to phsycially be on Earth with me. Although that's going to be a challenge. Angel is my Angel. Coincidence huh? He's my soul mate. I want him. I can't have him though. Angel is going to be taken away from me. I don't know when and i don't know where but after that, I will never see Angel again. No matter how hard I try. He's not going to be there. Unless I can save him. Saving him could mean that he's human and he can be on Earth with me. But Saving him could also mean that I'm dead. I have to go through so many obstacles and take down so many people before Angel can be turned human. It could cause me to lose my life or Angel's spirit will be distroyed. Will I take the risk to make him human? Well let's just say, I'd do anything to make him human.