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manicdepressive_
Complete, First published May 20, 2020
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JUST SO EVERYONE KNOWS: this book was not made to glorify self harm and suicide. i wrote this book my sophomore year of high school and based it off of what was happening in my life at the time. self harm is not "quirky" or "fun" and it is a serious issue and can lead to death. the glorification of it on this app and others such as tiktok and tumblr make it so that people who are actually struggling are seen as "attention seekers." non suicidal self injury (NSSI) is a real problem. this book was written from own experiences and not from a person who has no idea what the hell they're talking about. 

if you are having suicidal thoughts or struggling with self harm, please don't hesitate to reach out to the suicide prevention hotline. even if you don't feel like you can talk on the phone, please text them. they are there to help and i don't want anyone else to go on the same path i was on. 


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i'm fin e is the biggest lie i tell myself 

i'm fine is the biggest lie i tell everyone else 

because i'm not fine 

and nobody can see it 

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She woke up wishing she didn't. 

She's given up because surely others have, too. 

She was the mistake they took in. 

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Ahsoka Tano has only known one things since becoming Anakin Skywalker's Padawan: failure. 

Her master claims he would never trade her for anything, but she can only think of his pity and her own self-let down. 

Now struggling with her own mental struggles, Ahsoka wonders if anybody is still here for her; if anybody has noticed she's started to drown slowly and painfully from her own self-hatred. 

And Anakin has no idea she's pretending to be okay. 

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tbh this book is the epitome of shit but i hope u like it 

this one is 10000% better than any of my other works so read this one instead 

TRIGGER WARNING: 

DARK THEMES INCLUDED

this book contains strong language, self harm, drug abuse, suicidal thoughts and actions. if any of those make you uncomfortable, read at your own discretion.
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