I'm not gay
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Parker James was straight. No doubt about it. He's had tons of girlfriends , a ton of friends, ok grades , and he was on the swim team. Parker always THOUGHT he was straight, or more forced himself to believe that he was. He always had a feeling in his heart that told him he wasn't but he pushed away, like three galaxies away. He would look at a guy occasionally and think " he's got a nice build....he'd be good for swim team". But deep , deep, DEEP down he knew it was more than that . No guy had ever approached him before well there was one guy but that was a long time ago. There were a few lesbian couples ,and by a few he meant two, at the school but no gay person. That is until Oliver comes.
Oliver Simons is definitely gay. He's known since he was eight and kissed a boy on the play ground. When he comes to school everyone is intrigued. It's been so long since a new student came to school. Lots of girls mostly introduce them selves to him but he tells them he's gay . Then they all want to be his friend. But the only person who he's sees is Parker. You see Oli has color synesthesia. Which ,for him , means he sees people's auras , like a glow of color around people. He also hears music with color Association to certain sounds and words . Like if he herd a trumpet toot he might think it sounds blue . So when he sees Parker's black aura he investigates . Because black means empty , depressed and alone to him , and this kid had so many friends he was talking to how could he feel alone or depressed. He was always laughing how could he be empty...
I guess you'll have to find out!
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