Wanderers
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Last published Sun, Jul 26, 2020
Have you ever wondered what is in there after death? Would it be dark? Would I be able to feel? Or maybe I'll be reincarnated. Or just... nothing?
How about suffocating and flooding your mind with endless what if's? Like 'what if' this or that never happened?
These fucking questions, thoughts, whatever you call it, are things running in my head over and over. Alam kong sumagi nadin sa isip niyo ang mga tanong na 'to, pero pagtapos noon karamihan sainyo nakakayanang magmove on. Some may say these are uncontrollable things, why do you need to dwell in it when you can just move on and continue with your life?
Well, not for me. TUMATAMBAY SILA. Halos dito na nga sila naninirahan sa utak ko. They are my demons whispering- no not actually whispering- shouting loudly! 'WHY THE FUCK YOU ALIVE? WHAT YOU ARE FOR? YOU'RE SENSELESS!' 'NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU SO JUST DISAPPEAR! NO ONE WILL NOTICE ANYWAY' 'YOU'LL JUST SUFFER MORE IF YOU CONTINUE LIVING, END IT! END YOUR SUFFERING!'
I'm trying to get away from all of this, I'm telling you, I tried a lot! Nagresearch ako ng mga maaaring makatulong para maiwasan kong mag isip nang mag isip.
I've tried making myself busy all the time by doing a lot of things like chores, work (I even work overtime), work out. But I got tired. Not just physically, also my mind. Sumasabay 'yong negative thoughts habang may ginagawa ako. Mas nakakapagod. Eventually I discovered this one thing that lets me run away from these crap.
It's literally running away, I TRAVEL.
So come! Join me in this journey. Who knows this bitter life turns into a delightful one.
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