The Actual Beginning - Part 1
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"We were both broken when we met. The difference was that someone else broke him, whereas me, I was breaking myself."
Aldina Alvarez was kinda hopeless. She was hopeless romantic who often wished for her own 'fictional man' , but alas, no one on their right mind would want her.
Why would they? Why would anybody want to be with someone with chronic anxiety? Why would anybody love someone who never trusted them? Why would anybody ever want someone so...unstable?
This is real life. Nothing of that fairytale sort, butterflies and flowers happened in this sad, sad world.
Not to her anyway.
But not in her wildest dreams did she expect the 'fictional man' to be her doctor who she visited for one terribly long headache.
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