Waiting For 7:01

I want to dream big, bigger than what I think. But, 7:01 is what I'm scared of. I was just a little girl running down the hills then something happened when the clock striked to 7:01. Why? Why am I like this? I've been hearing whispers everyday to end my life. But I want to dream big.

Will I be able to reach for my dream? Will I be able to reach for someone before 7:01?