Close My Eyes (Jeff the Killer romance fanfic)

This memory...
I think about it but it doesn't hurt anymore. I don't smile, i don't shed a single tear. i used to. when i used to feel what pain was. But what has it turned into now? Just a faint memory that has overtaken me.i want to remeber. i keep seeing it. What can i do about it. Nothing. It's not that I don't care anymore. It's just that...I cant feel. I want to scream and take back time... bring them all back. but whats the use. Even if i could, it would only happen again and the story would repeat over and over and over again. He helped me though. I think I'm starting to feel again. I think I'm starting to feel love and pain, happiness and fear. But... i dont want to. I'm afraid. But i also wanna know who did it. Who did it to them.I cant quite remember. It's still a faint memory. I want to remember but im so scared.