grieving for the living
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when you're on tour together and practically sleeping on top of each other, it's not unusual for the other person to notice you're sick before you do. however, when you're on hiatus, living alone, and far more stubborn than you give yourself credit for, you brush off a nosebleed here and there, ignore muscle weakness so severe that you can't get out of bed, and vomiting before breakfast just becomes part of your routine. you adapt because that's what you've been told to do all your life, and you'll be damned if you start breaking the rules now.
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harry's sick, but this time, it's not just the flu that won't go away.
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