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grieving for the living

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Parts 28
Time 3h 47m

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when you're on tour together and practically sleeping on top of each other, it's not unusual for the other person to notice you're sick before you do. however, when you're on hiatus, living alone, and far more stubborn than you give yourself credit for, you brush off a nosebleed here and there, ignore muscle weakness so severe that you can't get out of bed, and vomiting before breakfast just becomes part of your routine. you adapt because that's what you've been told to do all your life, and you'll be damned if you start breaking the rules now. 

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harry's sick, but this time, it's not just the flu that won't go away.All Rights Reserved

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To Lou by snazzyhazzy28

"Hey Lou. It's been a while. Why did you leave?" Or the one where Louis left Harry. And Harry just wants his Lou to come back to him.

Strong ||N.H|| by VasHappenninJenn

Depression is not just a mental illness, it is also an emotion. Mine began when I was fourteen, after my parents died only months apart. Now I have to look over my younger sister and care for her no mater what. I love her, and she loves me. All of that changes once a blonde boy saves me and begins to care for me despite the risks. Little did I know was that he was going to change my life forever and that I was going to change his forever. Story published Sept. 4 2014

safe haven │ larry stylinson by 1DfriendsLM

You can't make me happy. Those were the exact same words Louis had said over five years ago. Harry could literally see his heart dropping and breaking on the ground. He swallowed and held Louis tighter. "Please, Lou" It was nothing more than a sob at this point. "I'm begging you. Please don't do this. Please" His feet trembled and he couldn't keep himself on his feet anymore. The only thing that held him was his hand on Louis arm. "You promised. Please" "I shouldn't have made that promise in the first place" • Louis had broken Harry's heart five years ago. Within minutes, everything had changed. Not only their relationship had fallen apart. With it One Direction did. Now, five years later in 2020, there will be a world tour on the occasion of 10 years of One Direction. Suddenly the two, who haven't talked a word for five years, are forced to spend at least six months together. They both have to overcome the past and the problems of the present for a future together. Will Harry forgive Louis? • TRIGGER WARNING. This story contains mature content including smut, suicidal thoughts, self harm, depression and talk of abuse.

half truths ,, l.s by ao3films

Looking back, Harry can differentiate the stages of it. It started with conscious eating, with trying to know exactly what was in his food and not wanting to put garbage into his body. Gradually, he started to work out more. And then came the restricting, where he slowly reeled back on carbs and fatty foods and sugar. But it wasn't too bad yet. All it was was thinking extra hard about his food choices and avoiding certain things. It was okay. Eventually, it stopped being okay. or, Harry struggles with an eating disorder. RUNNING FAST, STANDING IN PLACE (QUICK BREATHS, IT'LL END SOON) BY BRAVESTYLES ON AO3

A New Day Has Come || l.s. by CuriousKat

Louis Tomlinson was trying his hardest to be strong. He was always depressed because of hate from the fans. Every night, he felt like angels were singing to him as he cried himself to sleep. His life was miserable and no one knew about it. That he was sad, he cried everyday...that his smiles, his laughs were nothing but fake. He held it in, unsure of what the outcome would be. His thoughts on his life often were: "What if I were to just not wake up today?" or "What if I wasn't here? Would the boys even miss me?" He knew it would never get better. If he were to quit the band...fans would eat him alive. If he continues in the band...hate would just continue to roll in. What else could he do that would stop the hate, the pain, everything...forever? He made up his mind once the boys found out...

Walking In The Wind by LarryfanFICTION28

Dear Louis Your first love is the one that sticks with you becuase it's the only person who will ever receive all of you. after that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trail and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong because you will fall in love with someone new but it would never be the same as your first. xx harry COMPLETE

The Beach House ~ A Larry Stylinson Fanfiction (Completed) by FallingInward

“Every man is afraid of something. That’s how you know he’s in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you.” Harry had many fears. Fear of messing up on stage. Fear of letting everyone down. But he’d never been afraid of losing someone. A friend. He wasn’t supposed to. On his road to success, losing a friend wasn’t on the list. But when Louis gets diagnosed with Stage 2 Leukemia, Harry’s entire world comes to a halt. That wasn’t supposed to happen. But it did and it’s affecting everyone in an unexplainable way. So Harry makes a plan: To take Louis to Simon’s beach house for seven months. It was supposed to be a stress reliever, just to help Louis get on his feet and fight this thing with no outward interference. But what starts out as just a harmless plan, becomes something so much more. Harry’s looking at him in a new way. Louis, who should be so shaken up, is nothing but strong. As days and weeks pass, what once was just a mere affection somehow, becomes jaded. It’s nothing brotherly and has nothing to do with Louis’s sickness. They are both falling for each other, in that beach house, as they experience laughs and hardships, strengths and vulnerabilities. They form so passionate and bonding, it’s almost dangerous. Their love seems unbreakable. But is it?

Mosaic by omqpunkrock

Louis Tomlinson has always had self esteem problems; he never thought he was skinny or handsome, as he became older, he began to try to change things. Louis began to change his style of clothing and his hair, he also began to diet. His dieting was different than other peoples diet, he started to starve himself and if he had ate too much, he'd make himself purge. He felt like he needed to be perfect for someone to love him, he feels like no one would love a fat blob like him. Harry Styles is sad, very sad. He doesn't know how to explain his sadness, all he knows it that he wants to die; he doesn't want to live. He hates himself more than anyone on this planet. Harry doesn't exactly know what's wrong with him, he can fake a smile, he can make it look like he's having the time of his life when in reality he would rather be dead. Harry hates himself, he hates everything about himself; he believes that no one would love him; a suicidal boy that cuts himself. Both of these boys have different things wrong in their life, but they're both beautiful, they're both kinda like a mosaic; broken into pieces, but still works of art.

Suicidal Chemistry by SullenLarry

As long as he can remember, Harry has always been sure of one thing: he's in love with his oblivious best-friend, Louis. There's just one minor problem....Louis has depression to the point it disables him. Harry works at a bakery, but he's really made a full time job out of trying to save Louis from himself. What happens when a quack named Dr. Horan tells him to take Louis on a vacation? Individual feelings will be explored...but can Louis love him back or is the hopelessness too strong?

A Year in the Water // L.S. by ConfusedXDaily

*BOOK 1 COMPLETE* CHAPTERS 0-24 Louis and Harry meet, having to share an apartment with one another above a small bakery shop. When Louis learns that Harry is a leukemia patient with only so much time left, he vows to make their time together the best. But falling in love wasn't in the plans, especially when it gets harder and harder to say goodbye to someone you just met. Or, a sickfic about two boys on an island who need each other more than the ocean needs the water;* *** *BOOK 2* STILL WORKING ON! CHAPTERS 1- AND SO ON Harry's POV There was something so calming about swimming. Something that relaxed Harry's mind. It was the only thing that truly settled his racing thoughts. Until a pretty man walked into Berry's Bakery one day and ever since then... Harry had someone that would cross the seas for him to put an end to all of his bad thoughts. He was enamored with him. Or, in which Harry has leukemia, Louis rents out a room in his apartment above a bakery, and this is them falling in love in Harry's POV. Along with all of his journal entries. *** Mature for sexual activity, strong language, graphic scenes, and more!

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To Lou

"Hey Lou. It's been a while. Why did you leave?" Or the one where Louis left Harry. And Harry just wants his Lou to come back to him.